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“Not long ago, she told me she had cancer…”
Some things cannot be said to your friends and people you play with, because they are just outsiders and passers-by. But a lover is different, who participates in your life and you can tell that person everything. I think this is Ji Chenfeng’s logic.
If I hadn’t given him a “status” tonight, he might consider me a benefactor, creditor, or acquaintance in the future, but not a lover. From then on, he would never let me into his life again, never let me peek into his heart, nor would he allow me to touch him.
But now he opened up his heart to me, talking about Yan Shanhua and the things that have been bothering him during this period, perhaps to deepen this newly established intimate relationship.
Originally, I should’ve been proud and felt flattered in this situation. After all, this would simply be the best reward for my hard work tonight. But…fuck, how did Ji Chenfeng notice it? Did he realize that he is not Yan Shanhua’s son, and that Yan Shanhua is not his biological mother? What went wrong and how can he know?
Due to weakness and fear, my body was completely unable to move, just like a possum falling into a state of suspended animation when encountering a crisis. It could only resign itself to fate and wait for heaven’s arrangements, life and death were unpredictable.
“She told me not to worry about her, saying that I was just a child she adopted. Her child died as soon as he was born, and she was afraid that her husband would blame her, so she found a baby boy who had been abandoned by his parents and claimed that he was her own child.” Ji Chenfeng didn’t notice my abnormality, nor did know that a sharp Sword of Damocles was hanging over my head. “Of course I didn’t believe her. I just thought she was sick and didn’t want to burden me, so she made up such a lie…”
{Sword of Damocles hanging over your head =meaning that something bad is going to happen}
According to Ji Chenfeng, borrowing money from me was not Yan Shanhua’s idea.
Yan Shanhua developed lung adenocarcinoma, a malignant tumor that has advanced to a mid-to-late stage and has brain metastasis. Doctors in Hong City unanimously stated that surgery was not feasible and recommended targeted drug treatment. However, most of the effective targeted drugs are imported and very expensive, costing tens of thousands of yuan per month.
Yan Shanhua usually cleans up in the hospital during the day and helps at the food stalls at night, earning only more than 4,000 yuan a month. Ji Chenfeng has just finished his internship and has not paid back the 300,000 yuan he already owes me. So how can there be any money left at home?
Moreover, for patients in the mid-to-late stage, even with the best targeted drugs, the average survival time is only three years, which is simply equivalent to artificially delaying death. After she understood the situation clearly, she told Ji Chenfeng about the matter, and even fabricated a lie about adoption, hoping that Ji Chenfeng would leave her alone and let her die quietly.
She could calmly face the countdown of her life, but Ji Chenfeng couldn’t. Although this woman is foolish, and does not deserve any sympathy, to Ji Chenfeng, she is the mother who raised him. The two of them rely on each other and are each other’s only relatives in this world. Knowing that your only relative is suffering from such a serious illness, how could Ji Chenfeng not save her with his character?
After borrowing the money needed for the initial treatment, he immediately took Yan Shanhua to the capital to seek new treatment possibilities. After a week of tossing and turning, a lot of examinations were done, but the final conclusion wasn’t much different from the suggestions provided by the doctors in Hong City.
“That day… I remember doing a blood test. Before that, I never knew her blood type. So when I found out that her blood was type AB, I realized that what she said before might be true. My blood type is O, she can’t be my mother.”
At this point, the matter has become clear. It’s not that Ji Chenfeng discovered the truth, but that Yan Shanhua has wrapped a tighter layer of lies under the lie.
After a false alarm, I suddenly relaxed, my cold limbs began to warm up, and my paralyzed brain also resumed functioning.
Fortunately… the sword did not fall. As long as Yan Shanhua keeps the secret, there’s nothing to worry about.
“Why didn’t Auntie tell me that she was sick?” I propped up my weak upper body with my elbows on the bed and secretly wiped the cold sweat from my palms, saying, “When I was a child, I also drank her milk, so she is also considered half my mother. Three years ago, when she came to me for you. Why doesn’t she think about herself? If I knew about this, you wouldn’t be so tired these days. “
At this time, Ji Chenfeng was sitting at the head of the bed, and there was a certain height difference between us. Suddenly, our eyes met for a moment, and maybe because my acting skills were so good, Ji Chenfeng seemed to be deeply touched.
Holding the side of my face with his palms, his fingertips slightly penetrated into my hair. He leaned over little by little and kissed me for the first time tonight.
He’s really easy to coax. With just a few words, he was so moved that he wanted to stick to me. It’s because you trust others so easily that you always encounter scumbags.
But with this kind of development, will I be invited to climb the mountains again? Give me a break, I don’t want to go see a doctor because of a crack in my backyard.
Thinking like this, I wanted to retreat, but couldn’t find the right time to do so. It seems that Ji Chenfeng’s saliva seemed to have undergone some strange chemical reaction, tongue against tongue, lips against lips, unable to separate no matter what.
“I have to go now…” Ji Chenfeng whispered and kissed me again.
His thumb rubbed against the auricle, and soon it began to become congested, causing me to feel a burning sensation. Ji Chenfeng gently bit my lower lip and sucked on it tenderly. My arms began to tremble, and I couldn’t hold on any longer, as the physical strength that I had just recovered was once again exhausted.
I feel like I’m going to be deprived of oxygen again. My heart was beating very fast, and my head felt so dizzy. When are you going to end this sticky kiss?
As if feeling something in his heart, Ji Chenfeng’s eyelashes twitched, and in the next moment, I felt a pain in my lips.
“Mmm!” I pushed him away reflexively and turned my face to the side.
Licking my lips, I tasted the salty liquid in my mouth, feeling a stinging pain.
Bitten and bleeding. What kind of madness is this?
My bad temper was ready to explode. Last time in the bubble house, you covered my body with tooth marks while I was sleeping. Can you still bite me like this while I am awake? You are obviously the same age as me, so why do you still act like a dog?
“I’m sorry…” Ji Chenfeng hurriedly approached me, held my face, and carefully checked my injury, “I couldn’t control it for a while.”
Like an animal, he gently licked away the blood stains from the corners of my lips without any hesitation. The soft tip of his tongue swept over the wound, causing a stinging pain while a slight itching quickly spread from that point.
Now that he has already apologized, I can’t lose my temper anymore, otherwise it would seem like I’m making a fuss out of nothing…
The accumulated anger was reluctantly licked away, but anyway, he still needs to be warned if he does something wrong, right? Otherwise, the puppy won’t learn to behave properly.
Retreating back a bit, I broke free from his hand and said, “Doctor Ji should treat me more carefully. I have never caused you to bleed.”
Ji Chenfeng, who was kneeling at the bed, was stunned when he heard this: “Okay, I will be careful in the future.”
His lips were still somewhat stained with my blood. At first glance, it looked as if he had been passionately kissed by a woman with red lips.
“I really have to go now.” Ji Chenfeng’s fingertips brushed all the way from my hair, ears, to my chin. He didn’t say anything else this time, and immediately got out of the bed after retracting his hand.
He picked up his coat from the sofa nearby and looked back at me, “Go to bed early.”
After speaking, it seemed as if he wanted to come to me, but stopped the next second, looking at me for a while. In the end, he just let out a gentle sigh and turned to walk towards the door.
Staring at the closed bedroom door, the corners of my mouth twitched. If you want to kiss, just kiss. Why are you sighing? The words I said just now weren’t very harsh, right? So why do you feel aggrieved?
After waiting for a long time, I didn’t hear the door closing outside.
Haven’t you left yet? Could it be that… you’re waiting for me? A strange feeling arose in my heart, as if there were many things stuffed inside, causing my emotions to rise. Realizing Ji Chenfeng’s attachment, although my body felt exhausted, I have to say that my heart was really… happy.
Forget it, comforting a clingy puppy is also my duty as an owner.
With a click of my tongue, I endured the discomfort in my body and got out of bed, stopping Ji Chenfeng as he was about to leave the suite.
“Wait……”
Feeling uncomfortable, it seemed as if my muscles were stretched loose, and every step I took caused waves of strange sensation in my body. It felt as if my body firmly remembers Ji Chenfeng’s appearance and never intends to forget it in this life.
When Ji Chenfeng saw me catching up, he stopped closing the door and asked.
“What’s wrong?”
I paused for a moment before saying, “I will go see my aunt when I have time. Don’t push yourself too hard.”
After hesitating for a moment, I repeated my previous proposal to him, “And why don’t you work for me? I hope you can consider it carefully. Auntie’s current situation is that she needs to go to the hospital every two or three days. Which job would allow so many leaves? Moreover, targeted drugs cost hundreds of thousands or even three hundred thousand a year. If you can’t buy those drugs for Auntie for two years, what will happen next?”
The money will only become increasingly insufficient with time. Even if he doesn’t eat or drink, he still won’t be able to earn a huge amount of money for drugs, and he also has to pay off my half a million.
With his self-esteem, he would never ask me for money again. So what is he going to do? Would you sell your kidneys and blood to repay your mother’s kindness? Is Yan Shanhua really worthy?
Seeing that Ji Chenfeng frowned but was not obviously angry this time, I continued: “Doctor Ji, I just want to help you, so…”
I got stuck, as I wasn’t very used to this new identity, “As a lover, of course I can also give you money directly. Two hundred thousand a year is not a problem for me. But I respect you and know that you don’t want to owe me too much, so this is the most suitable and appropriate way I can think of.”
So, put down your self-esteem and pride, be locked by my side obediently, and become a dodder that lives on my charity. Why are you still running around when you obviously can’t live without me anymore?
“Doctor Ji, Chenfeng… can’t you understand my painstaking efforts?”
When I called him “Chenfeng”, his eyelashes visibly trembled and his eyebrows stretched out.
“I’ll consider it carefully.” He seemed to have listened to my words, “Thank you.”
He stepped forward and hugged me. It was not a hug between a couple, but more like a hug between a friend or relative, without any sexual desire.
After a few seconds, he let go of me and said goodbye before leaving.
I looked at his back until he disappeared at the end of the corridor, then closed the door.
The words I said just now are probably the second most heartless and hypocritical thing since my high school graduation speech.
During my graduation speech, I told everyone that everyone will have a bright and promising future. But in fact, I knew that many things are destined and cannot be easily changed by oneself.
Children of high-ranking officials and wealthy businessmen will never have the same future as the children of a bricklayer, even if at some point they may appear to be… on par.
Accumulation of money and power from generation to generation creates a class that is difficult to cross. “As long as you work hard, you can also become a big shot” is the biggest lie that adults tell young children.
After drinking and indulging in lust, I didn’t wake up until the next day when Zheng Jieyuan came knocking on the door.
My brain was throbbing with pain, my breathing was short, and my body was very tired, which were signs of sleep deprivation that I became accustomed to.
I opened the door with a gloomy face, and before I could curse, Zheng Jieyuan squeezed in.
“I didn’t say anything because there were too many people yesterday. Do you know who gave me that stupid donkey thing?”
I couldn’t help feeling angry after being woken up and coldly replied “I don’t know”, then throwing the capsule into the coffee machine, I turned around and went into the bathroom to wash up.
“I know, I fucking recognized who wrote that character at a glance!” Zheng Jieyuan followed, “It’s that bastard, Shi Hao. He is very persistent, wanting to disgust me every year on my birthday. Isn’t he sick?”
His bright red hair, after being washed at night and exposed to the sun, had now turned into a tender pink color, which was very inconsistent with his ruffian-like image, and even looked somewhat comical.
“Three years ago, the one who hit him was me. When he came back, he didn’t pick on me. Instead, he gave you toys. I think he fell in love with you out of hatred? That’s why he keeps pestering you like this.” I deliberately disgusted Zheng Jieyuan.
Sure enough, he immediately hugged himself in disgust and shuddered.
“You bastard!”
As I squeezed the toothpaste on the toothbrush, I forgot about the injury at the corner of my mouth and was scratched by the bristles.
Twisting my facial features, I touched the wound with my fingertips, and my mood instantly worsened.
“Huh? What’s wrong with your mouth?” Zheng Jieyuan leaned against the pool and looked at me, his eyes gradually rising with a desire for gossip, “Did you take someone back to your room last night? This girl is quite spicy, leaving her mark on you. Who is it? Is it someone I know? Is he an Internet celebrity or a model?”
Glancing at him through the mirror, I dismissed him: “Doctor.”
“Hey, angel in white, come on!”
Zheng Jieyuan’s face lit up, and then he completely forgot about Shi Hao and concentrated on asking me to find a match for him, saying that he also wanted to meet some beautiful angels in white.
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