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My body still felt sore and weak after the fever subsided, so that when the smell of food wafted from the kitchen, it felt unreal as if I was in a dream.

I have forgotten the last time I used the kitchen. The last time someone specially prepared breakfast for me, I forgot who it was.

Since three years ago, my insomnia has become more and more serious, and even taking medicine does not always work. It’s dawn when you sleep, and it’s dark when you open your eyes, which has almost become the norm in life.

Even after sleeping for a long time, the body always feels exhausted. Bones, stomach, and mood, everything is terrible. When I eat, I feel like I will vomit it anytime, anywhere, and my picky eating is getting even worse.

Under such circumstances, having breakfast in the morning has virtually become a luxury. And letting me sit at the table for breakfast with peace of mind is the same as casually writing a set of numbers and winning a lottery like a miracle.

It’s really amazing. I stared ahead slightly in a daze. Whether it’s the sun rising outside the floor-to-ceiling windows or the noise in the kitchen, it’s all magical.

“How cooked do you want the eggs to be?”

Turning to the direction of the open kitchen, after seeing Ji Chenfeng in front of the stove, the thought “this man is really amazing” flashed in my mind at the same time.

Will a normal person really run to take care of someone and spend the night at his home just because a dog at his workplace bit someone?

How can it be?

No matter how abstinent he looks, in the final analysis, this guy is just a dissolute gay. As long as the voice is pleasant, the second son will stand higher than anyone else.

“Whatever.”

After taking a sip of the hot water from the cup, I felt that it was too bland. I got up and prepared to make myself a cup of coffee. Just as I was about to press the button of the coffee machine, Ji Chenfeng’s voice sounded from behind.

“Mr. Sang, you’d better…don’t drink any stimulating drinks.”

Occasionally there will be a woman who I would only date for two days but she would ask me not to do this and that. I thought it was already annoying enough, but I didn’t expect something even more annoying.

It’s just that after a night, without even touching each other’s sexual organs, do you feel that you can dictate to me and interfere with my preferences?

“Okay.”

While prolonging the tone of my reply, I threw the teacup rudely on the table. Due to the excessive strength, the water in it was thrown out, and there was a harsh knocking sound.

The rare breakfast was white porridge with poached eggs. It looks so simple and shabby, but after eating, the taste was surprisingly good. The porridge was not very thick, the rice was rich in fragrance, and the temperature of the poached eggs was well controlled with just the right amount of salt.

When I drank porridge, Ji Chenfeng opened the takeaway bag and ate the cooked rice that he brought for me yesterday but didn’t eat.

Even if it hasn’t gone bad, it’s already been one night and the food is no longer fresh. For me, this kind of thing is only suitable for feeding the trash can. But to Ji Chenfeng, this is precious food that must be cherished.

The person who was supposed to be the young master was eating leftovers. But the person who should be a servant is swaggering and enjoying the delicious food cooked by the young master himself. This sense of inversion is really more exciting than any coffee.

“Is it delicious?” Holding the porridge bowl, I asked deliberately.

Ji Chenfeng paused, and raised his head from the plastic bag—as if in order not to dirty the table, he didn’t take the lunch box out of the bag, and spit the bone directly into the bag.

As if he misunderstood what I meant, he swallowed the food in his mouth, and slowly pushed half of the rice in front of me.

“Do you want it?”

Except for two green vegetables, there is almost no shortage of barbecue and roast goose, and they are completely laid on the other half of the rice. He must have been one of those kids who would save the strawberries on his strawberry cake for last when he was a kid.

“Thank you.” I smiled, even though I wasn’t interested, I still swept most of the rice into my bowl.

To save the best for last is having to bear the risk of being robbed by others.

Looking at the lunch box that exposed more rice in an instant, Ji Chenfeng’s expression did not change at all, he dragged the rice back to him, buried his head and started chewing again.

Although the cold rice is not delicious, it was snatched from Ji Chenfeng, so I felt it has a special flavor. Surprisingly, I ate it all.

After finishing the meal, Ji Chenfeng cleared the table very consciously. Because I ate too much, I didn’t go back to the bedroom to rest immediately, but moved to the living room to digest.

I turned on the TV and tuned to the morning news. Although I am not interested in it, but I am also not interested in other things, so I just watched the news.

When a boring neighborhood dispute was broadcasting, suddenly a cup of dark brown hot drink was gently put down on the coffee table in front of me.

Raising my eyebrows, I looked up at Ji Chenfeng who was standing quietly beside me.

“Didn’t you say I am not allowed to drink it?”

That’s just right. I picked up the cup and took a sip with great interest, and instantly I felt a sweet, greasy, and strong milky taste…Because what I imagined was completely different from what I tasted, for a moment I suspected that my taste buds were broken.

“It’s milk chocolate.” Ji Chenfeng slowly introduced the drink he made.

Is he taking revenge on me? Trying to trick me with something similar, thinking I’m a three year old?

Reluctantly swallowing the milk chocolate in my mouth, I raised my glass to Ji Chenfeng and praised his craftsmanship against my will.

“Thank you, I like it very much.”

Because I want him to be emotionally invested in me, no matter how unhappy I am in my heart, and how much I want to throw something that I don’t like directly on his face, I can’t really do that.

In my 25 years of life, except for when I am facing Sang Zhengbai, I have never been this frustrated. Thinking that there might be more of such things in the future, the pleasure of enjoying Ji Chenfeng’s service disappeared.

No, I have to find another way.

I clenched the handle of the ceramic mug, staring at the surface of the hot chocolate with delicate milk foam floating, my mood, which was rarely brightened by adequate sleep, fell to the bottom in an instant.

“I should go.” Ji Chenfeng glanced at the time, picked up the coat on the sofa and walked towards the door, “If you feel unwell, remember to call me.”

There was still a sweet and greasy taste in my mouth, I didn’t want to talk at all, and I didn’t mean to say goodbye to him.

Ji Chenfeng walked between me and the door, exactly half way, at this moment, the electronic door lock outside the door suddenly rang, and a “password input error” sound came out.

“Huh? Did I remember wrong…” Tang Bian’s voice came faintly from outside the door.

Ji Chenfeng stopped subconsciously and looked towards me, and I immediately looked towards him. I don’t know where the strength came from, I jumped up from the sofa, rushed to grab his hand, and dragged him all the way into the bedroom.

Why did Tang Bian come so early today?

It’s one thing to befriend a veterinarian, it’s quite another to have the veterinarian spend the night in your own bed. It is not a good thing to make Tang Bian suspicious. Although he is an idiot, his mother is not a vegetarian.

I was also in a panic, I just locked the bedroom door, Tang Bian would never have the guts to come in, but I chose to push Ji Chenfeng onto the bed, wrap my head with a quilt, and then went to bed myself.

Huge room, bathroom, closet, behind the curtains… There are so many places where people can hide, and it was very convenient to hide, but instead I chose the bed.

I might really have been turned silly.

“Master, are you awake yet?” After finishing all this, Tang Bian also entered the room.

Damn, I forgot to close the bedroom door, but the blackout curtains are drawn, and the bedroom is very dark, so he shouldn’t be able to see clearly what’s going on inside.

“Master?” Seeing that the bedroom door was half-open, Tang Bian really walked towards me.

Covering Ji Chenfeng tightly, I groped his lips under the quilt with his fingers, covered them gently, and signaled him to keep quiet.

“Get out.” My voice was still a little hoarse due to the fever last night, as if I hadn’t slept enough and was woken up.

Tang Bian stopped at the door, the light came in from the outside, and his shadow also spread in from the outside.

“I saw a pair of unfamiliar shoes outside, are there any guests?”

“Do I need to report my private life to you too?” I cooled my voice, picked up the lamp on the bedside table and threw it over.

Tang Bian was startled, and hurriedly backed away. The desk lamp hit the carpet and rolled twice, luckily it didn’t break.

“I’m just curious…” He muttered, and the second half of the sentence was close to talking to himself, “Which woman has such big feet.”

The breath spewed into the palm of my hand was suffocated, and my fingertips were a little wet. I realized later that it was because I was too nervous, and I put my fingers on Ji Chenfeng’s lips.

Dry lips, soft and hot mouth… I had an untimely thought at this moment, if he used this place to serve me, perhaps my patience would be better when I faced his arrogance in the future.

I am not interested in entering another man’s body, but when I think of dirtying Ji Chenfeng’s calm and clean face and making him appear in a trance, I can’t help being a little distracted.

Men are such pathetic creatures that they cannot control their lower body for various inexplicable reasons. In the end, neither Ji Chenfeng nor I could escape such a fate.

“Don’t disturb me, get out.” I ordered again, and my voice became hoarse.

“I know, I know, I’ll fill up the refrigerator and leave.” Tang Bian sighed and closed the door for me.

When Tang Bian was far away, I lifted the quilt covering Ji Chenfeng.

The worse the sleep, the higher the requirements for the sleeping environment. Mattresses, sound insulation, and blackout curtains are all brands that the designer emphasizes on both price and quality. There is no best, only better. Once the door was closed, the interior can be said to be so dark that one can’t even see his own five fingers when reaching out. Dark, silent, cold, perfect for sleeping.

I took away my palm covering his lips, and he clenched it firmly. Ji Chenfeng sat up and said in an inexplicably weak voice: “Can you… turn on the light?”

The faint tremors transmitted through his arms, as well as the red dots on his ears that were unusually eye-catching in the dark, made me quickly realize that his cochlear implant was out of power.

Since it is an electronic device, of course it needs to be charged regularly. Ji Chenfeng didn’t go home yesterday, and the battery has only run out now, so it is considered durable.

A world in which one cannot see and hear but only has a sense of touch and smell. And I am the only life-saving straw that can be grasped.

“Got it, let me go first…” After speaking, I realized that he couldn’t hear me at all.

It was a bit difficult to get rid of his shackles. Although it was very dark, it was my bedroom after all. I reached to the bedside and quickly found the switch for the reading light.

A small yellow lamp lit up slightly above the bedside, and the room was finally no longer dark.

“It’s ok…” When I turned my head and saw Ji Chenfeng’s appearance, the last word “ba” was unconsciously swallowed between my teeth.

He was almost like a polar bear who had travelled for seven days and nights, only to suddenly realize that he was actually heading in the wrong direction. The tall body slumped and knelt on the bedding, with his arms stretched forward stiffly, as if he wanted to reach my position in the dark. Both his trembling eyes and pale complexion made him look particularly fragile.

It’s really amazing, even more miraculous than the rising sun and the kitchen filled with noises. My lower body slowly lifted its head just because of his sadness.

My body is physically and mentally exhausted, and I don’t want to do anything at all, but my body is excited and continued to be in pain, which made me wonder if this was another fatal side effect of the vaccine.

Contrary to my pale complexion, I even had a little smile on my face.

“Be good, it’s okay…”

Holding his somewhat cold hand, I gently pulled him into my arms, hugged his head, and patted his shoulder.

After a moment of stiffness, his muscles loosened a little bit, as if finally letting go of his guard against the wild animal he was worried about, hesitantly and cautiously letting me hug him and get close to him.

The smell, touch, and even the temperature of the skin are completely different from those of women. As long as you hold him in your arms, you will never mistake him for the fact that he is a man.

“You are really suitable to be locked in a small and dark cage…” Looking at the dazzling halo on the ceiling, I gently stroked the back of Ji Chenfeng’s neck that was extremely hot because of fear, contrary to my movements, my mouth was full of malicious words.

For him, I have no desire to invade or enter, only an impulse to constantly trample and defile him. It seems very interesting to turn him into a waste who only cares about me and only breathes for me.

Ten minutes ago, I felt like I was dying, but now I seem to have found a new joy.

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