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I have been waiting for this moment for hundreds of days and nights.
I betrayed the deity, so the deity no longer allowed me to step into his territory. This is the punishment I deserved, and I didn’t feel wronged. It’s really been… too long, so long that I have forgotten that this mountain was once for me to conquer at will.
It’s been a long time since I set foot on this snowy mountain. The scent of the mountain, the touch of the snow, the frozen hard surface, the undulations of the mountain ranges similar to veins…. nothing has changed, and everything makes me miss it endlessly.
I kissed the earth and touched the hard surface with trembling hands, wanting to feel it more, but the deity picked me up from the ground and roughly pulled me up the mountain.
“Wait…” I hadn’t done such intense exercise for too long and couldn’t bear it for a while. I begged the deity to slow down his movements.
The deity looked at me condescendingly, caressed my cheek, and let out a low “hmm” from his throat, as if agreeing, but the force that pulled me upward didn’t diminish at all.
I realized that this was a deity who only looked benevolent but was actually cold and fierce.
My stomach was churning and my legs were cramped. I bit my lip, and my eyes were blown by the cold wind, unable to hold back the tears as they slid down from the corners of my eyes.
“I’ve always known what kind of person you are…” The deity kissed away the tears at the corners of my eyes. Perhaps my embarrassed appearance aroused his pity, and he softened his movements, no longer so rough.
“You have too many flaws, and your disguise is not careful enough.” In the blurred vision, the deity’s gentle gaze was mixed with a bit of hatred, “But I still…can’t extricate myself from you.”
Putting my arms around his neck, I pressed the sweaty side of my face against his cheek, rubbing it obediently and affectionately.
“I love you…” I swore my loyalty to the deity, “I will only love you for the rest of my life.”
So, you can also love me with peace of mind and give your whole heart to me.
“Love me?” The deity seemed to be bewitched.
I kissed his lips and said, “There is no one in this world who loves you more than me.”
The deity fell silent. Perhaps he was moved by me, and in order to reward me for my piety, he transformed into a cold wind and wrapped me tightly, supporting my body and quickly taking me to the top of the mountain.
I screamed loudly, and my head went blank due to lack of oxygen. I struggled to breathe, but not much oxygen entered my lungs.
I am dying, really dying.
But after finally being able to come back and regain the qualifications to set foot here, even if I die, it’s impossible to stop.
I resisted my instinctive fear and hugged the deity in front of me even tighter.
I thought I would reach the peak in one breath, but I didn’t expect the deity to place me just a stone’s throw away from the mountain top.
I opened my eyes in confusion, but the deity had already retreated.
“Sang Nian, this is the last chance I will give you…” He made a rather scary opening statement, making me nervous. “If you still have something to hide from me, confess it now. After tonight, I won’t dig up old accounts, and I won’t be angry with you for it. But if you choose to continue hiding…”
He didn’t say anything further, but anyone with a little bit of brains could understand what he meant.
Leniency for those who confess, punishment for those who resist. If I choose to hide it, and he discovers the truth one day, even if he is unable to extricate himself from me, he will never continue to indulge me. Emotions need to be maintained, and trust cannot withstand consumption. Just because he can forgive me once doesn’t mean he can forgive me for lying to him again and again.
I’m not stupid, I know he’s giving me opportunities, over and over again.
Biting my knuckles anxiously and thinking for a moment, I revealed my despicable side to him bit by bit.
“Your previous job…. you lost it. It’s because I bribed the dean not to hire you…”
The handsome deity grabbed my hand and took a big step forward. Amidst my exclamation, he calmly asked: “What else?”
“I asked Zhou Jiyu to teach me…how to ‘capture’ you and try to manipulate you emotionally.”
“I hired someone to follow you for three years… Every week, she will send your whereabouts to my mailbox.”
“I thought about imprisoning you and making you a dodder who could only rely on me…”
“The apartment I lived in before was not up for renovation at all… it was all an excuse for me to get close to you…”
“The medicine is for anxiety… I spent three months in a sanatorium for treatment without any news from the outside world…”
What a mess, it’s so confusing, everything that could be said was told, even things that had nothing to do with him, including the grudges with Shi Hao back then, probably because I was afraid that my confession was not thorough enough.
And every time I confess something, the deity will lead me one step closer to the top of the mountain as a reward.
“Anything else?” He confirmed it with me.
I shook my head, trembling to express that there was no more. I will be his devout believer from now on, how dare I hide anything from him?
After removing the finger that was touching my teeth, the deity kissed my sweaty forehead and praised me gently: “You did a good job, Xiao Nian. Very good.”
Words like curses penetrated into the ear canal, my body trembled, and the fingers of the deity were intertwined unconsciously.
Why does it have to be at this time…
Well, he definitely did it on purpose.
I’m going crazy, I can’t calm down at all, my heart is going to explode, I know clearly that this is what I can’t bear the most…
As if injected with strength, I began to actively ask to continue moving forward, which was completely different from the way I used to resist and wanted to rest after taking only two steps.
Even the deity was a little surprised by my positive attitude: “Do you like it so much?”
I didn’t answer, just stepped forward and hugged him tightly, urging him to move faster.
“Do you like it?” The deity changed his usual temperament and stubbornly asked me to express my position.
My cheeks, eyes, and ears were all hot, and even my brain seemed to be boiling, unable to think well, burning into a ball of paste.
“Like……”
Once you let it out, you can’t stop.
“Like you……”
I like him everywhere, so much that I want to turn into a cocoon and be with him forever, buried deep in the ground. I like him, like his kisses, like his touches, I like everything about him.
I couldn’t see the deity’s expression, but judging from the fact that he immediately turned into a strong wind and carried me to the top of the mountain before I could react, he must have been quite satisfied with my answer.
The speed was so fast that it felt like I had ridden the roller coaster ten times in two minutes, each time diving directly from the highest point.
I was completely paralyzed, lying on the top of the mountain, my body was so limp that I had no strength at all. The deity kissed my cheek lovingly and rubbed my forehead affectionately. He was so happy, happy that I could return to his embrace and conquer the snowy mountains he transformed once again.
He made no secret of his love for me, almost branding the words “Deity’s Beloved Mortal” on my body.
“How are you?”
Closing my eyes, I let out a long “hmm”.
I just wanted to express that I was fine, but to the deity, it sounded like a tacit agreement.
Climbing a snowy mountain will only tire the mortals, not the deity. After resting for a while, he decided to do it again.
Previously, I couldn’t fully appreciate the joy of mountain climbing, or in other words, my strong self-esteem made me refuse to admit that I was addicted to it. But things are different now. I have completely understood the meaning of “conquer” – when I conquered the snowy mountain, the snowy mountain also conquered me.
I won’t resist anymore, and I can do it again as many times as I want. Thinking this way, I took the initiative to send out an invitation.
“I want to do it again…”
Then there was the second and the third time. I wanted to cooperate in my heart. After all, this was my first chance to express myself before returning to the deity. However, my physical strength was not enough. I gritted my teeth and resisted the rejection, but my body wanted to escape uncontrollably.
Sure enough, it still doesn’t work. I can’t climb up. Let me rest…
As a result, the deity dragged me back and forced me to continue to move forward.
“Are you tired of it?” The deity cunningly asked me a tricky question when my will was at its weakest.
Do you hate me for treating you like this? Are you lying to me when you say you like me?
Because I once said “hate”, even if I add a million “likes” later, he will still doubt the credibility of those likes. The deity of this snowy mountain who always appears and aloof is actually a vengeful and petty guy in his heart.
“…I don’t hate it.” I gritted my teeth.
The wind and snow danced happily around me, making a crunching sound when stepping on the snow.
“Really?”
After waiting for a moment, the deity seemed to be dissatisfied because I didn’t answer. He directed the wind and snow to penetrate into the back of my neck, leaving painful marks on my flesh.
I had no choice but to give in and let go of my teeth, shouting in a broken voice: “Really, really!”
“Shh…” The deity covered my mouth and whispered hypocritically into my ear, “Keep it down, don’t scare the little animals.”
Then why don’t you let go of me and stop pestering me with questions?
I cursed in my heart, but still obeyed and didn’t make any more noise that would alarm the little animals. Even at the joyous moment of reaching the top of the mountain, I obediently covered my mouth and only dared to let out a slight hum from my throat.
After three climbs, the deity finally felt satisfied and allowed me to sleep in the embrace of the mountain.
I was so exhausted that I almost rolled over and lost consciousness.
Who is the one who hasn’t rested well for several days and nights?
Blinking my sore eyes, I woke up with pain all over my body. Judging from the sunlight shining in through the skylight, it was at least nine or ten o’clock. I was alone in the attic, and I didn’t know when Ji Chenfeng got up.
The air conditioning was turned on, taking away the summer heat. My body felt refreshed and the mattress was also dry. It was obvious that Ji Chenfeng had done a perfect job in dealing with the aftermath, just like before.
I got up stiffly and put on the t-shirt and pants placed at the end of the bed. As I raised my hand, I suddenly felt a tug of pain in my shoulder.
Looking down, I saw that the ugly mark on my shoulder was red and swollen, with bright purple tooth marks on the outer circle.
On touching it, I hissed in pain, and I couldn’t laugh or cry. Ji Chenfeng really likes to put his own marks on my scars.
I turned my head to look behind me, only to see a tooth mark on a cigarette scar on my lower back. Needless to say, my back should be full of bite marks.
He is obviously the same age as me, so why does he act as those born in the Year of the Dog? Are you treating me like a bone?
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