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Si Yang’s words were quite calm, without any anger or resentment. It was as natural as eating and drinking water.
But for Chen Zhao, it felt as if a thunderbolt struck him, making him more scared than ever.
Because in many cases, hatred at least represents that you once loved the person, resentment proves that you have grievances in your heart and you still care. But if it becomes as quiet as a lake, there really won’t be anything left.
Chen Zhao looked at Si Yang blankly and subconsciously grabbed his wrist. This time, Si Yang didn’t break free, just letting him hold it.
The skin under the palm is not so smooth. Chen Zhao shook his hands and untied his cuffs with trembling hands, revealing the skin there.
Si Yang’s complexion was snow-white, and under such bright sunlight, it even gives people a jade-like warm and transparent feeling.
But such a beautiful picture was completely destroyed by the hideous scar on the wrist.
Chen Zhao swallowed and stroked it with trembling fingertips.
The area closest to the artery was pale in color, resembling an old scar. The rest are all over the place, with varying widths, all of which were freshly healed wounds.
“Director Xu may have told you a lot, but there is one thing he was wrong about. It wasn’t a needle, but a knife.” Si Yang’s tone was very gentle.
“Actually, at the beginning, it was indeed said to be needles, but Director Xu’s brother was somewhat timid, so he went out after the first bet, and what he learned later was all heard from other people, and then boasted to his younger brother. So of course, it’s not that comprehensive.”
“And cutting the wrist was also different from the kind in movies. It’s difficult to die unless the bone is visible in one cut. After all, blood will coagulate.”
“…Stop talking.” Chen Zhao shook his head, with a pleading look in his eyes.
However, Si Yang didn’t stop speaking, “So at that time, as long as the blood was about to coagulate, they would make another cut.”
“Chen Zhao, do you know what it feels like?”
“In the dark world, there is nothing but the sound of blood flowing. By the way, those bastards will also play some small games with me. To lose is to die, but to survive is also to die.”
“Stop talking, I beg you…” Chen Zhao went up to hug Si Yang.
Si Yang’s voice also became closer and more appropriate to him.
“Don’t you think I’m dirty? Didn’t you almost vomit when you helped me in the nightclub before?”
“No, I didn’t, it’s not like that.”
“Why bother?” Si Yang patted Chen Zhao’s head, using a bit of force to push him away this time, “Everyone is an adult here. In the past, you were willing to use me, and I was willing to be used. Now that we have cleared everything up, let’s just go our separate ways.”
“Don’t…” Chen Zhao wanted to grab him, “I will make it up to you.”
He eagerly wanted to make amends, “Si Yang, listen to me, I will definitely make it up to you.”
“…”
“Don’t reject me yet, I beg you, can you listen to me?” Chen Zhao was already begging, “You call me senior, and you know how I grew up. From childhood to adulthood, except for my mother, no one really treated me well. If it weren’t for my disguise and calculations, no one would really like me.”
“At the beginning, I thought you treated me differently just because of my outer appearance. I really didn’t know that you were willing to do so much for me.”
“Si Yang, I have never liked anyone, you are the first one. I also know that I was blind in the past and couldn’t see your goodness, but I promise that I will never do it again in the future.”
“You can’t…you can’t be so cruel to me.” Chen Zhao paused, then took Si Yang’s hand again, making him look at himself, “You can’t abandon me like this after making me fall in love with you.”
“Si Yang, how can there be such a cruel person like you in this world?”
“You still love me, don’t you?”
But Si Yang patted his hand away, turned around, and left without any hesitation.
“Why can’t Chen Zhao figure it out? Si Yang can’t love you anymore.”
Because he is already dead, even his soul was sacrificed for the wrong person, with no chance of reincarnation. But you can’t even tell the difference between the person you claim to love and the person who arouses your desire and attracts your attention?
Chen Zhao subconsciously wanted to chase, but was overwhelmed by Si Yang’s words that could be considered farewell. He stood frozen in place, unable to recover for a while.
In the end, he could only watch Si Yang’s car gradually disappear from afar.
He realized that there was no possibility for himself and Si Yang in the end.
“Teacher Chen, Mr. Si asked us to pick you up.” After standing there for some time, the two young men took the initiative to walk up to Chen Zhao and greet him.
Chen Zhao did not speak, so they took it as Chen Zhao’s acquiescence, got in the car, and drove to where he was supposed to go.
As Si Yang mentioned earlier, he wanted to change Chen Zhao’s residence, and Si Yang did what he said, everything was really prepared.
It was a high-end community with excellent security and privacy. The duplex apartment covered more than 200 square meters.
As for the interior decoration, it was also Chen Zhao’s favorite style, and even some small details such as green plants are what Chen Zhao liked.
“If you are not satisfied, just tell us directly, and we will replace it for you.”
However, Chen Zhao looked around, and only asked one question, “Did Si Yang arrange it?”
“Yes.”
“Then there’s no problem. Can I stay by myself?”
“Sure, we’ll go first. The number has been sent to your mobile phone. You can contact us anytime if you need anything. Mr. Si said that you can take a rest today. The official work and various courses will start from tomorrow.”
“En.” Chen Zhao nodded.
The door opened and closed. Chen Zhao sat on the sofa in a daze and closed his eyes, his mind full of Si Yang in the past.
“Senior, just make do with it for now. When you change to an A-level contract later, you can live alone instead of sharing a room with others. At that time, all the arrangements will be according to your liking, and there will be no uncomfortable things.”
“Although there are no work announcements for the time being, it will gradually come. Senior, don’t lose your heart.”
“Senior is really impressive, and he will definitely be popular, even ten times more popular than other newcomers!”
“Senior, I will always help you!”
This was what Si Yang said by his side when he was depressed back then, and he took it all as a joke at the time.
But now, the house, the new work announcements, the fame, the future, everything that Si Yang promised back then, has been fulfilled one by one.
But Si Yang…no longer loves him.
Si Yang will never fall in love with Chen Zhao again.
Chen Zhao covered his face and curled up on the sofa, crying bitterly.
“No more…I don’t want anything anymore, come back…” He cried softly, his tears blurring his eyes. But in the dark, Si Yang’s words kept echoing in his ears.
“Chen Zhao, Si Yang can no longer love you.”
It’s not that he won’t, it’s that he can’t. It was like a knife stabbing fiercely into the heart, and the heart that was already dripping with blood was almost crushed into pieces.
Chen Zhao closed his eyes and cried, eventually falling asleep.
On the other hand, Si Yang was not in the mood to mourn the lost love like Chen Zhao. He was busy as hell.
After careful calculation, there are more than three months left in his life, the last would be totally useless. So, he still has a lot to do now.
First of all, the most important thing is that he must ensure that Chen Yu can survive after he leaves.
System: This is difficult! After all, you are the person he likes. If you die because of him, he will definitely go crazy.
Si Yang: That’s why I want to ensure his survival. Use your authority to find out, apart from me and Chen Zhao, who can legally donate to Chen Yu.
The system checked: there is indeed one, in vegetative state, whose mother was about to give up. However, if Chen Yu chooses him, there will be a rejection afterwards, and most likely he will not survive. In the original world, Chen Yu died like this.
Si Yang: It’s not important. Just give me his information, and I will provide it to the secretary.
System: Host, what exactly do you want to do?
Si Yang: I will use the next two months to train Chen Zhao.
System: Huh?
Si Yang: Chen Zhao likes me, and I want him to be the final winner in this battle. As long as Chen Yu thinks about it, he will not die. So I want to make sure that he can’t get what he wants, so as to ensure his survival in the end. And for that, Chen Zhao is the best choice right now.
System: Why?
Si Yang: Because Chen Yu doubts my feelings for Chen Zhao. Think about it, if I desperately want to leave a protective umbrella for Chen Zhao, what will happen to Chen Yu?
System: He will hate Chen Zhao, but dare not harm him. Because your life would be in Chen Zhao’s hands.
Si Yang: Yes, so I want Chen Zhao, at least on the surface, to be able to compete with Chen Yu.
Si Yang’s analysis made sense, but the system felt chills when he heard it.
System: Host, do you have no feelings for Chen Yu at all?
Si Yang asked back: Isn’t it just a mission?
System: … Yes, but Chen Yu’s feelings for you now are real!
Si Yang didn’t answer.
Real or fake? Who knows? This shell is not his, including the lustful feelings that Chen Yu and Chen Zhao have just because of the skin and appearance. When the soul is truly changed, can they really tell the difference?
Just like Yu Zheng in the previous world, can he really tell which brother he missed all his life?
If they can really tell the difference and still fall in love with him, it means that everything the original body did was useless. But if they can’t tell the difference, then what qualifications do you have to mention love or anything?
It’s all a joke.
Si Yang: Let me ask you, in your fast travel system, are there any hosts who end up having mental breakdowns because of too much empathy?
The system was silent for a while and replied, “Yes.”
There are quite a lot.
Human emotions are the most complex. As hosts, they listen to the original body’s wishes and accept the original body’s circumstances, but it’s hard to remain indifferent. In the process of continuous rescue, there are quite a few hosts who eventually fall or collapse because of emotional ties.
This is also the biggest reason why the system chose Si Yang.
Because there are only two types of people who can maintain their original intention. One way is to be gentle to the extreme and to move forward with love in your heart. Another way is to be like Si Yang, who never believes in emotions and only regards everything as a task.
Si Yang seemed to see that the system had understood and said something in a soft tone, “Silly child, feelings can only be used to exploit others, not to hold oneself hostage. So…”
“It’s better not to trust anyone.”
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