Home/ The Selfish Gene/ Chapter 25
Approach Ji Chenfeng, stand up for him, date him…Everything I’ve done so far is just to gain his favor and seek benefits for myself.
Being with him is indeed much more interesting than being with Zheng Jieyuan and the others, and the happiness I get is also very novel. But playing the couple’s game on the surface is enough, after all, people still need to make more plans for their future.
Completely cut off his source of income, create a huge financial gap that he couldn’t afford, and drive him to a dead end with raging flames. In this world, it has always been the case of “rich have distant relatives even if they reside in the mountains, and the poor have no one to inquire about them even if they wander around the busy market.”
Three years ago, no one helped him, and three years later, no one will help him. In this way, he can only turn to me for help.
Just like a hero in a fairy tale, I will descend from the sky to extinguish the flames and save him from danger. And he will be like an innocent “princess” in the high tower who knows nothing about the world, being grateful to me with tears in his eyes, without any doubt.
Accepting my grace one after another, he will surely fall into the trap I’ve woven for him. In the end, he would…become a dodder that depends on the big tree to survive, eat the nutrients I give as charity, cling to my feet, and become an inseparable community of interests with me.
“Can’t you find him?”
The nurse at the front desk with “Li Ya” written on her nameplate smiled awkwardly at me and said, “I’m sorry, Mr. Sang, Dr. Ji has resigned from the job, and we can’t contact him at the moment.”
Looking at the tightly closed office at the end of the corridor, my tone gradually became worse because I didn’t receive a satisfactory answer.
“And what about my turtle?”
“It was…taken away by Dr. Ji.”
“You can’t find the doctor, nor can you find a turtle. What else can you do?”
Facing my strength, the nurse shrank back and lowered her head, unable to speak fluently.
“Yes, I’m sorry… Otherwise, I will give our dean’s contact information, you can ask him, is that okay?”
Ask a fart.
Annoyed, I punched the table with my fist. Although I didn’t use much force, the nurse was still terrified and took a few steps back.
“Mr. Sang, you, calm down. Doctor Ji is very kind, there must be some misunderstanding, he will not mistreat your turtle…”
Pursing my lips tightly, I turned around and strode out of the pet hospital, not even listening to what the other person was saying.
It has been a week since I bribed Wu Rong. Today is the last day of Ji Chenfeng’s internship, and it is also the day to inform him of the hospital’s decision not to hire him. But I hadn’t been able to contact him since the morning. I don’t know if he has blocked me. And although Yan Shanhua’s phone was on, she didn’t pick it up either.
Damn it! Where did he go?
Sitting in the car, I bit the nail on my thumb to vent my inner frustration.
Yan Shanhua couldn’t have told him the truth, right? Otherwise, why did the two lose contact at the same time? Or did the old man let his tongue slip up by accident, making Ji Chenfeng realize that I was playing tricks behind his back?
No, it can’t be.
Everything was fine until yesterday. I met him two days ago and took him to my hotel to watch a horror movie together. At that time, although he was absent-minded the whole time, his attitude towards me was no different from before. When I pretended to ask, he just said that he was too busy with work and didn’t have a good rest, but I guessed that Yan Shanhua must’ve asked him for money—as I told her, she made up a bunch of lies and asked him to find a way to get some money. He was worried about it, but out of face, he didn’t want me to know.
I’ve been waiting for him to speak for the past two days, and I’ve even thought of my lines, but now I don’t even know where he went.
Why do these small things always go wrong? Can’t everything just develop according to my plan?
Damn it, damn it, damn it! !
There was a sudden pain in my thumb, and when I regained my senses, the neatly trimmed nail on the thumb had been bitten off to the bone with uneven edges, not to mention that the top was oozing with wisps of blood.
Frowning in disgust, I pulled out a tissue from the car and wiped my hands roughly, then looked at the phone again.
It was quiet, whether with a call or a message, Ji Chenfeng didn’t reply to me.
Whenever I send him a message in the morning, he will always reply to me after getting off work at night. Because I was almost used to it, I only realized at night that something was wrong. And when I went to the pet hospital, Ji Chenfeng had already disappeared.
Although I knew that the internship period would end after three months, I honestly didn’t remember it very carefully, which led to the current situation. This is probably a result of harboring a hundred secrets and letting one slip. Rather than being annoyed at others, I hate my own carelessness even more.
After all the effort I have put in, I should’ve been more careful…
After coming out of the pet hospital, I went to Ji Chenfeng’s house again. Looking through the small kitchen window in the hallway, it was dark and quiet, it didn’t look like anyone was inside.
Hammering on the blue iron door relentlessly, except for the loud noise, no one came to open the door.
Dragging my feet down the stairs. I almost fell because of being distracted. Fortunately, I grabbed the rusty handrail next to me in time, but even so, I slid and sat on the steps in embarrassment.
Winter has arrived in Hong City, and the sky has been gray since the morning, as if it will rain anytime, anywhere.
Looking at the sky above the slums where all kinds of wires are scattered, without a single star in the sky, I let out a long breath.
It’s not a good day for me. It is said that when people are unlucky, even drinking cold water will clog your teeth.
Sitting on the filthy steps like this, I took out my mobile phone with a dusty hand, and tried to send another voice message to Ji Chenfeng.
“I just went to your house to look for you, but I accidentally fell down on the stairs. Doctor Ji, it hurts so much.”
Leaning against the railing, someone walked down the steps behind me, but because it was too dark, the person didn’t even notice me in the corner.
About five minutes later, it gradually started to rain, and just when I was about to get up and leave, my phone suddenly rang. Seeing that it was from Ji Chenfeng, I quickly picked it up.
“How can you…”
“Where the hell have you been?”
Ji Chenfeng remained silent, seemingly at a loss.
“Where are you? I’ll come find you.” I gritted my teeth and changed the words.
Perhaps it’s because he sensed my anger through the electronic signal, but Ji Chenfeng was quite sensible and explained his whereabouts without talking any nonsense.
“I’ll send you the location.”
Following the navigation, I finally arrived at a small amusement park not far from the slums. Ji Chenfeng was sitting in a convenience store facing the entrance of the amusement park, with a small plastic box in front of him. From the dim silhouette, it was not difficult to see that it was my little bastard.
I fiercely pushed the door of the store, and walked straight towards Ji Chenfeng by the window amidst the background sound of the clerk “Welcome to XXX”.
If it was in the past, I would definitely fight the person because of my anger, but right now, it’s Ji Chenfeng, so I had to bear it no matter what.
So I just stopped in front of him, breathing heavily, my thoughts tugging back and forth, holding back the violence in my heart and stopping me from punching his handsome face.
In order to find him, I didn’t eat dinner and ran around all night. While looking for him, I even fell down and got mud on my pants, and my body is still wet from the rain, feeling cold and sticky.
The whole situation made me feel so embarrassed, while he was sitting here in this warm convenience store, still in the mood to play with the turtle and watch the scenery.
“Why didn’t you answer the phone?” I asked him calmly.
He was sitting on a round stool, looking up at me slightly, with no intention of justifying his behavior.
“……Sorry.”
My already clenched fists clenched even tighter: “I went to the hospital, they said you resigned.”
“Did they say that?” He smiled with a hint of self-deprecation, “It’s not resignation, it’s just that I didn’t pass the internship.”
As I sat next to Ji Chenfeng and ate a bowl of instant noodles, the rain outside grew heavier, scattering on the huge glass outside.
The amusement park opposite has already been closed, but the lights on the facilities continue to flicker, changing into various colorful lights. Among them, the huge Ferris wheel is particularly prominent.
“When I was young, I was always envious that other children could have parents to take them to the amusement park.” Ji Chenfeng said, looking at the Ferris wheel in the distance.
Pushing aside the bucket of instant noodles full of strong flavor, I wiped my mouth with a paper towel and said, “What a coincidence, me too.”
Ji Chenfeng turned his head to look at me: “Haven’t you been there since you grew up? With your… those girlfriends?”
My attitude towards those women was probably similar to the attitude Sang Zhengbai has towards me – as long as the material conditions are satisfied, it is enough. In addition, my emotional needs constantly change according to my mood, and most of the time, I was in a bad mood, so I couldn’t care less about them.
“No.”
Unable to bear the taste of instant noodles in my mouth, I got up and went to the cashier to buy a box of mint candy.
“Let’s go together sometime.” Returning to Ji Chenfeng’s side, I looked towards the amusement park opposite us, and said, “Let’s go to all the places I didn’t go to when I was young, and do all the things I didn’t do.”
He stared at me for a long time, his lips rising in a faint curve: “…OK.”
Wasn’t it me who got soaked in the rain? Why are you the one with wet eyes?
Getting closer to him, I held his face and lowered my head to kiss him, completely ignoring that this is a convenience store with people coming and going, and there were even two clerks three meters away.
This kiss seemed to have shattered the calm facade that Ji Chenfeng was trying to maintain in front of me. He pressed the back of my head and deepened the kiss, while his other hand tightly grasped my wrist. From the point of contact, a slight trembling could be felt spreading.
The taste of mint spread in each other’s mouths, and the pain on the tip of my tongue caused me to regain my sanity.
Opening my eyes, I immediately noticed the two clerks at the counter peeking at us from time to time, whispering to each other, they obviously noticed our unusual behavior.
Two men kissing in a convenience store. They must think it’s perverted, right? It’s okay, I also think it’s perverted.
To this day, I still can’t believe that I kissed another man, comforted him, slept in the same bed with him…everything is so disgusting and perverted, but I still did it.
For the sake of power and wealth, people can really become ghosts.
Pushing Ji Chenfeng’s shoulder slightly, I grabbed his hand and rushed out of the store. The rain has decreased a lot, so running all the way to the parking lot is not a problem.
“Wait a minute……”
Ji Chenfeng broke free from my hand and went back to the store again. When he came out again, he was holding the little bastard that had just been left behind and a newly bought umbrella in his hand.
Taking the umbrella from him, I unpacked it and opened it up, and then walked into the rain first, but I didn’t see the other party following me for a long time.
Looking back in confusion, I saw Ji Chenfeng standing under the rain eaves at the entrance of the convenience store, staring at me with complicated eyes. As he tightly held the plastic box with his fingers, the top of his nails turned pale due to the too much force.
I had a premonition about the words he was going to say, but I didn’t rush him. I just put one hand in my trouser pocket and waited quietly with an umbrella in the other hand.
After a while, his stiff body suddenly relaxed, and the self-esteem in his body that didn’t want to yield was finally defeated.
Lost to…the cruel reality that was beyond his control.
“Sang Nian…” He asked through the falling rain, “Can you help me?”
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