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His tone was too serious, as if there was a huge source of foul smell on my body.
I held my suit jacket in doubt and smelled it, it’s the obvious scent of ladies’ perfume. It should have been rubbed off by Xu Xi in the morning, and after a few hours of volatilization, it has changed from the initial strong scent to a light one. Is he talking about this?
Dog nose.
“Oh, this.” I explained with a smile, “It was accidentally rubbed against by someone. If you don’t like it, can I take off my coat?”
Ji Chenfeng looked at me for a while, then let go of his strength.
I straightened up, took off my suit jacket on the desk, and also unfastened my shirt cufflinks by the way.
“You…why did you suddenly appear again? Didn’t you already refuse me?”
My movement of unfastening the buttons paused slightly. Refuse? Does it mean that his attitude of not contacting or replying to my messages these two days is because he has already “rejected” me?
I was rejected? Are you kidding me?
This guy… has to have a certain degree of twisted personality. When he buried his head between my legs and licked me as if a dog licked a bone, I didn’t see how reluctant he was. Why did his self-esteem as a gay man broke out only after two days?
“I didn’t force you that day…”
“Because you refused the meeting letter, I thought you would not see me anymore, but then you suddenly appeared, and pretended not to know me. That night was indeed my voluntary act of gratitude because I regarded you as a benefactor. It will be like that, but you seem to… just treat me as a pastime when you’re bored.”
He stood up from the recliner and looked directly in my eyes: “The amount of three hundred thousand will be returned to you as soon as possible, please stop teasing me, Mr. Sang.”
This is the longest paragraph that Ji Chenfeng had ever said to me, with his usual calm expression, and even his tone of voice remained unchanged as before. However, this short statement of a few hundred words was like an atomic bomb falling from the sky, directly setting off a turbulent wave in my heart.
“How did you…” Why do you know about that 300,000? Did Yan Shanhua tell him? Didn’t the woman say that she wouldn’t tell him anything? And what letter is he talking about?
I have a lot of questions to ask him, I am afraid that he may know about 300,000 yuan, and also know the secret of his background. But probably because my brain received too much information at the moment, it became difficult to organize my words. I grabbed his arm, but not a single word came out of my throat.
No!
I can’t lose everything I have now.
Although it should be his, it has already been given to me, so it should be mine. How can someone who has been given nothing get everything? I am not giving it back to him, absolutely not.
Holding his hand more and more tightly, my chaotic brain began to be controlled by violent emotions, and I even thought about the possibility of attacking the other party with a glass jar in the corner.
Anyway, Sang Zhengbai will take care of it. Like three years ago, I wouldn’t have anything to do with it…
“Knock knock knock!”
The hasty knocking on the door interrupted my out of control thoughts and brought me back to my senses.
“Doctor Ji, there is a little Teddy who is not doing well, please come and take a look quickly.”
Ji Chenfeng glanced at the closed door and replied, “I’ll be there.”
Little by little, he pulled my hand away. After dropping the atomic bomb, he didn’t care about the casualties, and left the office without saying anything.
The door opened and closed, and the room was silent again. I leaned back on the desk, and in just a few seconds, not only my palms, but even my back was covered in cold sweat.
Fuck, I almost became a murderer today.
“I’m really crazy…” I covered my face unbearably, gritted my teeth and breathed out, feeling scared until the fear subsided and reason regained the upper hand.
I smooth out the folded cuffs, button them up, and put on the suit jacket. And as if nothing had happened, I opened the door, walked through the corridor, and left the pet hospital without looking back.
“What the hell did you tell him?” Crushing the ticket I had just removed that was clipped to the windshield wiper, I suppressed my anger and asked Yan Shanhua on the other end of the phone, “Why did he know that I am the one who gave you the 300,000? And yes, there’s still a letter, which letter was he talking about?”
“I… I really haven’t told him anything about you.” Yan Shanhua assured me in a trembling voice, “I never mentioned your name.”
I clenched the paper ball into my fist, slammed my hand against the car window, and yelled, “Then why does he know it’s me? Do you think that Sang Zhengbai would let you go if he knew you raised him? Would you still be his mother, you are really dreaming! Once I am exposed, you have to die with me!”
“Xiao Nian, please don’t get excited. Listen to me. I swear I never told him about you. That letter is like this. Every time you pay back the money, Chenfeng will put a letter for you in the envelope. I was afraid that you would be unhappy when you see it, so I always remove it every time…”
But if there was no response, she was afraid that Ji Chenfeng would be suspicious. So every time she comes to pay back the money, she will buy a greeting card from the gift shop downstairs of my apartment, and ask the boss to write a casual sentence and take it back. In this way, she lied to Ji Chenfeng for three years.
“After the cochlear implant was successfully implanted, he always wanted to thank you personally. But I told him that you were my former customer who only lent me money for the sake of the past relationship, and it is best not to disturb you. He believed it, and didn’t mention anything about it afterwards. I thought he gave up, but a few months ago, he graduated and found an internship job, and suddenly mentioned in his letter that he wanted to see you…”
Of course it was impossible for Yan Shanhua to let him see me. In order to completely dispel Ji Chenfeng’s thoughts, she returned the letter on the same day and did not give him a gift card in return.
Afterwards, Ji Chenfeng seemed to have completely given up the idea of meeting me, or rather he was too shocked, and stopped writing to me, and just paid back the money honestly.
No wonder he said some things that I couldn’t understand today. It turned out that it really had nothing to do with me. And what is this woman pretending to be smart about?
“Where are those letters?” I asked.
“At… at home, I put them away in a place that only I know.”
“Find them for me.” I warned her sharply, “Don’t do unnecessary things. The only thing you have to do now is to shut up for me. Only when I am better can you get better.”
I threw my phone away and sat in the car for a long time, but the e-cigarette could no longer relieve my restlessness, so I drove to the bar I used to visit frequently.
Although it has not started business yet, time doesn’t matter if it is a big customer. The boss entertained me personally, took out the wine that I had stored with him before, and poured it for me glass by glass.
It’s hard to get rid of a habit, but getting it back is much easier.
The strong wine entered the throat, and it wasn’t difficult to swallow. It just fell down the esophagus into the stomach very smoothly, and soon my body began to heat up.
I can’t remember how it ended, and I don’t have any impression of how I got home. When I woke up the next day, I was lying on my bed in the apartment, my phone was placed properly at the head of the bed, my coat was at the end of the bed, and my headache was like an overripe watermelon——ready to explode anytime, anywhere.
There was a message from the bar owner on my phone, saying that the car was parked in the garage for me, the car keys were on the coffee table, and a photo of the parking space was attached at the back.
My last message with Ji Chenfeng was still from a few days ago, and it seems that he really doesn’t want to talk to me anymore.
Although I am not a patient hunter, it is not so easy to escape from me…
I considered my words before entering them into the chat box, deleting and adding continuously, and finally formed a sentence that can be sent.
【I have no intention of teasing you.】
Staring at the words and sentences on the phone, I repeated them silently over and over again, making sure that the tone was sincere enough before sending them out.
Almost in the next second, Tang Bian’s call came.
My mind, which was so tense that it was almost broken, immediately turned into anger directed towards him when I picked up the phone: “Are you looking for death?”
Tang Bi was quiet for a while, and then said timidly: “Master, did you forget that there is a farewell ceremony for Mr. Shi today? I will come to pick you up later. You haven’t woken up yet, have you?”
I vaguely remember that there was something like that.
Unbuttoning my shirt and getting out of bed, I went to the bathroom: “I know, I’ll be downstairs on time, don’t call again.” After speaking, I hung up the phone roughly.
“What’s wrong with your face?” Sang Zhengbai eyebrows furrowed so tightly as if indicating how much he despised me.
Although I took a shower and sprayed men’s perfume that can definitely cover the smell of alcohol, I am afraid that the makeup is the only way to cover the green under my eyes caused by long term insomnia and hangover
“I feel a bit uncomfortable.” I said with downcast eyes.
“Uncomfortable?” Sang Zhengbai let out a cold snort, not believing it all, “Since you are uncomfortable, go back and rest after expressing your condolences, and you don’t have to go to the vegetarian meal(food donated to the monk’s) afterwards.”
The nerves on one side of my brain throbbed intermittently, followed by a sharp pain. I was really uncomfortable, so even though I understood that he said this to avoid losing face in front of others, I didn’t refute his proposal.
“Sang Zhengbai and his son Sang Nian are here!”
While speaking, it was our turn to express condolences. Sang Zhengbai withdrew his gaze and strode towards the auditorium.
I followed behind him, just like I did when I was a child. The only difference may be that I am no longer so eager to catch up with him.
The master of ceremonies handed over the incense, and after bowing three times with Sang Zhengbai, we stepped forward to insert the incense into the incense burner.
“My condolences, the old man is gone now, you need to take care of your health.” Sang Zhengbai took the hand of the eldest son of the Shi family and said a few words of comfort.
The members of the Shi family were all dressed in mourning clothes, regardless of their true intentions, at least they looked sad.
I stood quietly behind Sang Zhengbai, imagining myself as a dog led by him—— as long as I obediently listened to the owner’s arrangement, everything else had nothing to do with me.
Looking directly at the end of the Shi family’s direct line, from the very beginning, I could feel a sinister gaze directed towards me, blatantly trying to cut my flesh with the eyes, it’s very uncomfortable.
A young man who was dressed in white linen clothes with a white cloth tied around his head directly met my gaze. The thick black eyebrows and thick lips are exactly the same as Mr. Shi in the picture, and one can tell at a glance that they belong to the same family. However, his originally handsome face was completely destroyed by a long scar extending from the forehead to his cheekbones, making him look a bit hideous.
Oh, it turned out to be Shi Hao who hates me so much, I thought.
Without caring about the other party’s sinister gaze, hiding behind Sang Zhengbai, in front of the huge portrait of Mr. Shi, I silently uttered three words to his grandson.
“What a dog.”
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